Sunday, October 26, 2008

I'm a Mom that has a hard time expressing others do it for me!

As all of you that read this blog know, I do am not the greatest of writers. I can write an essay for school, or a research paper, or maybe even a short, short story....but only with ample time to write, and re-write, and write yet again. In the blogging world, that kind of writing is not ideal. In the blogging world, you type up a quick post, maybe check it for spelling errors (I always try to do's the perfectionist in me) and put it on the Internet. After I publish a post, I don't usually read it on the actual blog, I don't want to see the imperfections (or the perceived imperfections) and have to make updates, or add more to the post. That is why most of the time this blog is fairly shallow, and well, FUN. I don't DO deep and meaningful very often, for the reason above (I don't want to write and re-write) and because I still have a twinge of insecurity, and I think that what might be deep and meaningful to me, might be taken the wrong way, or I might get made fun of, even if it is not to my face (or comment section). That a long, round about way...I read Clever Girl Goes Blog on a daily basis, and a post in particular kinda hit home with me. When Did Everything Change? talks about Tia's life changing all at once. She is trying to get pregnant with her first kid, and she is thinking about the changes having a child will bring to her life. She wonders when she became an adult with a career, an adult that sits at the adult table at Thanksgiving, and an adult that other people actually take seriously. I also often wonder why people see me as an adult, when quite often I see myself as still a kid. I wonder how I came to be a Mom, and even though I know it is where I want to be, sometimes it takes me off guard that I am the "Mom" my kids are asking for. If you read Tia's post, and read the comments, mine is toward the end, you will understand a little more of how I related to her post. If you read it, and can relate also, let me know....I'd love to hear from you! PS...Katie...I got your tag, and I am working on it, I promise!


Katie said...

Everyone I know feels that way. They all wonder when they crossed that line from teenager to full-blown responsible adult. Problem is, there's not a definitive line to cross. It's a series of small jumps (job, marriage, home, kids) and then you look back and wonder, "How in the hell did I get here?" But some how, you did. And your mind has a way of making you feel like you're still 18, but sadly, your body tells you otherwise.

And the whole vampire thing, I totally get, too.

Allison and Ben said...

I understand what you mean, I sit down and wonder some days how did I get to this point in my life. I know it did not just happen, but came in little steps. I'm with her on the whole 13 year old inner ego, Ben always teases me about the teeny bopper shows I like to watch. Life is sometimes very sureal.

Vicki said...

Yes, everyone feels this way at some point in time which differs for everyone, too. Parenthood, for me, has been the biggie, maybe even "the line". And I wouldn't trade it for anything!